lets see..approximately 5 days ago..my parents went to attend a wedding in kk, leaving me to become the driver...which i must say, i didn't really enjoy..coz i had to wake up at 5.30am on Sat, make breakfast AND somehow get those two siblings of mine to WAKE UP..and i really hate waking up early...ive been waking up early almost everyday since 2000, when we left primary 3(where classes are in the afternoon) and entered primary 4(which is in the morning)...and so yes, i've always hated waking up early.

i understand the wisdom of 'early to bed, early to rise' or vice versa, but understanding it doesnt mean I have to do it..H-A-H.so yes..back to story.i managed to get those two pigs up and abt and by lots of whining and yelling, managed to get them to school before 7am...AMAZING...especially for my brother...that had to be the first time he was early to school this year.coz he is ALWAYS late.i wonder if any of his classmates expressed great shock...then i went back home..and went back to sleep(against mom's orders)until 11plus...ehehehe...if my mom knew...she would kill me..then i had to clear up the house a bit and THEN go pick them up from school.

well, i knew i should have gone earlier, coz there was this nice traffic jam stretching for quite a long distance...and i sat at the wheel..with my face looking like this --> T.T...and i cursed a few times....until i finally got to where i wanted to be.there is this place opposite our school,some government or school building, where u can park and wait..well, yay, there was still a place for me where i loved to park most(coz its easy to park in that place)and so in a few seconds, i was snug as a bug...until i realised that i was kinda blocking a car that had parked in the space beneath the building..normally,it wouldn't be much of a problem since the owner of the car was not in the car itself, but what if he returned?u see, where i parked, i had a leetle disadvantage...if the owner came back and decided to leave..the only place i could go was out to the main road..and then i wont know how to get back in safely..and so i was panicking and panicking and thinking..'those two idiots better get out here before tht car owner comes back or i'll KILL them...'they were supposed to come out at 12.35..but they ended up coming out at 12.50...and as fate would have had it...before that, the car owner came....[cue music in the tune of 'this is the end!!']..this is the situation...

well,just in time..the car in the second space..the one with the longest label..it left...so i just turned right into it...and once the car inside left, i reversed back out...and just at that moment, lo and behold, my two siblings came..........and i erupted...couldnt they just come out one minute earlier????then i wouldn have to face SO MUCH trouble!!!!AAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGHHH!!!!

and then..that night..i had a little unfortunate accident...its also the fault of those two siblings...coz for dinner we cooked some kind of sauteed mushrooms..and they wanted me to cook it again..I was really reluctant at first, but finally i gave in...mushrooms, the button kind, are stored in a can, so need a can opener.but sometimes, the cover of the can doesnt come off completely and remains attached to the can by this tiny sliver of metal, in which you either push the cover inwards or pull it outwards to break the sliver...I opted to push it..and those two kept chattering and i wasnt cautious...plus, i was in some kinda bad mood over cooking again..so i think i was saying some not very nice things..just as i pressed down on the cover...it gave way...and so did my skin..coz by pure bad luck..my thumb was above the cover where the sliver was..so when the cover snapped free and went down, my thumb too went down with the force of my push and the sliver sliced into my flesh....O-U-C-H...and it wouldnt stop bleeding...T.T... those two began screaming...and I hadn't even made a single sound...except to say, 'ow'...one wouldve thought that they were the ones who got cut instead..but oh well..kept a tissue pressed to it..and tried to stop the bleeding...and to my misfortune.....

THERE

WERE

NO

PLASTERS

IN

THE

HOUSE

........

ok...a few days ago, or the last time i checked actually...there were ALOT left...then Ernest sheepishly admitted to using all of them because the skin of his finger came out or something like that....over 50 plasters im sure...he used them all...i was super pissed..coz that meant i had to go upstairs and dig into my wardrobe for an elusive memory of plasters i stored there...in other words...im not even sure if they're there or my memory is playing tricks on me..but i found them...they're quite cute..with patterns of zebra skin, leopard skin, tigerskin on them..

and one final misfortune...later, it was my responsibility to hang up the clothes to dry...u know how clothespins have this spring thingy so that they will remain closed?so when u open them u have to use force?well, yes..when i was holding on of them open, my finger slipped, and it recoiled and hit me...you guessed it..RIGHT WHERE I CUT MYSELF EARLIER...the PAIN!!!!!!!i yelped for sometime after that..and handled the clothespins with my left hand after that..NO WAY am I risking my injury a second time....

my brother and sister said that its divine punishment...coz they said i was saying bad words...well, i think i was saying something, as i mentioned above..but for the life of me, i cannot remember what i said...and they cant remember it either..and(after i um..reprimanded them), they had to wash the dishes, coz i cant now...its kinda cool to look at the injury afterwards..coz u can see where the flesh got sliced so neatly...i estimate the injury to be about 0.1-0.2mm deep and 0.5-0.6mm long...

this is how it looks like..

and after i um, reprimanded my siblings..they looked like this

well..GOODNIGHT TO ME!!!!

as im bored..i shall post something random first...stole it from kim's blog..

Q: Do you like boys?
. dotdotdot....what do u expect?girls??of coz boys la!!

Q: Do you currently have a boyfriend?
. Nope~

Q: Do you have a lot of guy friends?
. i have quite alot..

Q: Did you ever wish you were a boy?
. erm...i did think that it would be interesting...but i prefer being a girl..more fun

Q: Girls Rule Boys Drool. Is that statement true?
. dot dot dot...i dont want boys who drool...they need baby bib..

Q: What do you look for in a boyfriend?
. Loves me for who I am,..

Q: Would you rather hugs or kisses from a boy?
. Both..this is a stupid question

Q: Are you considered ‘boy crazy’?
. um...i dont think so...i do appreciate the sight of superb male specimens though..

Q: Is there a boy you wish you had never met?
. oh, DEFINITELY....and not just one

Q: Do you get tired of boys easily?
. im not sure...but if i do, im theorising that maybe its coz i dont love them?

Q: Would you rather chill with boys or girls?
. Depends on who are the boys and who are the girls

Q: Choose, good looks and no personality or ugly and great personality?
. Neither...i prefer a balance//but i think im more of the latter than the former...

Q: Are you shallow?
. That is a very good question...but i think it depends on the situation

Q: Do you even know what shallow means?
. in a word..DUH...

Q: Would you date an emo guy?
. i'm not sure if he was emo...i have forgotten....bt no...i dont think so..reserved,composed..maybe but emo...nah...

Q: Would you date a gangster guy?
. and fear that he will die in some gangster shootout or that he is a bully?or worse?...maybe not..fantasies are ok..but reality is always different

Q: What is your age limit?
. i would prefer my age or older by no less than 3-4 years?but as i cannot predict the future nor who i'll fall in love with...i'll let God decide

Q: Does your life revolve around boys/a certain boy?
. Itachi~?heheheh...but in real answer to this question..no...

Q: Name three things you notice first about a guy.
. hm...since my eyesight is bad..first thing i notice will be the clothes he wears..2nd thing..um..looks?i think...including hair..and the such...basically the appearance.coz the appearance can tell u alot sometimes..i dont mind if he has one piercing on ear..but if got piercings anywhere else like lip..or God forbid,eyelids or other more delicate places...NO WAY...and 3rd..um...his eyes...[that was a random one...i couldn think of a third one]

Q: Why did you decide to do this note?
. It looked like fun

Q: Why don’t boys do notes as much as girls do?
. i would say its coz they prefer playing online games..and that they r lazy,

Q: Last boy you talked to:
. Brother, 10 mins ago

Q: Last boy that made you smile:
. made me smile huh....Yamada Ryosuke..i was watching the show which i blogged abt early this morning at 2a.m

Q: Are you thinking of someone as you write this?
. not really..im thinking how to answer the questions..

Q: Do you hope that they read this?
. not thinking of anyone so how can i hope they will read?

Q: They won’t actually bother to read it though, will they?
. Ditto previous answer

Q: Do you like boys in tight clothes?
. Y-U-C-K...i HATE skinny jeans...it so does NOT look cool and only serves to emphasize how stick-like some of their legs are...

Q: Do you like when boys wear their pants so you can see their boxers?
. I - HATE - IT....what for i want to see how your underclothes look like and what pattern u have on them??

Q: Do real men really wear pink?
. like kim said..not hot pink.,.but i think that guys who can look good in pink are worthy to be called goodlooking..

Q: Do you like it when guys sing to you?
. if u're my favourite idol, of course..and if the voice is nice...but otherwise..no..its embarrassing..especially if u caterwaul...

Q: Name one thing you HATE about guys.
. when they treat every other girl nicely except you just coz u r different...OR...when they are so DENSE..that its amazing how they go through life...

Q: Name one thing you LOVE about guys.
. XY chromosomes...n they give u a reason to be happy and excited sometimes..

Q: Are you with any guys right now?
. u mean beside me?NO.

Q: What is the difference between a ‘guy friend’ and a ‘boyfriend’?
. if u take it literally..it means the same thing..but if u want to use the other meanings available...go ask someone else..im too lazy to explain..plus..im sleepy now..

Q: Do you plan on getting married?
. Hopefully yes

Q: How many kids?
. One?two?

Q: Do you like Valentine’s Day?
. Its not like there's a special someone giving me chocolates...so its normal...

Q: Will that special someone remember your birthday?
. No special someone now....and guys in general tend to forget birthdays...

Q: Will you remember his?
. unfortunately...yes

Q: Do you believe in horoscopes?
. No.but i read them for fun

Q: Have you ever read his?
. who is he?

Q: What’s your opinion on love at first sight?
. it's possible..but not in this day and age...ppl nowadays treat love as a game..

Q: Do you know any boys that believe in it?
. i think so..

Q: Is this note way too long?
.kinda..coz im sleepy...

Q: Are you a flirt?
. Ask Kim..Kim, am i?

Q: Is that a good thing?
. ditto~

Q: Would you rather have dinner and a movie or walk on the beach for a date?
. i dont mind either...as long as there is no incoming tsunami..or some evil person lying in wait for unsuspecting lovebirds to rob them..or worse..

Q: without condom or with condom?
. This question is not worthy of a true response..

Q: Diamonds or Pearls?
. i like both..but i dont like super huge diamonds..looks weird on ur hand...plus..all the thieves in the world will be after u..

Q: Chocolate or Teddy Bear?
. depends on mood

Q: Would you die for a guy?
. never been in such a situation..

Q: Would any boy die for you?
. now?no...dont think so at all..

Q: Are you glad this note is done, finally?
. yeah..im going to nap for awhile...

sorry to guys if i sound really cynical abt your gender in general...but i cant help it..XD..off for a little nap

I have recently been on a 'Japanese boyband craze'...ahahaha..sure enough..I'll always love Japan more than I can ever love Korea..which i dont love by the way..i cant even like DBSK that much..
well..yes~i stumbled upon a video in youtube that shows Yamada Ryosuke of HeySay Jump dancing...and when i watched it...by the end..i was like this..O.O...that boy can MOVE man...and of course at the same time, i was doing silent screaming..coz he was just SO CUTE!!!especially that smile!![melting into puddle]...his english pronunciation is quite good too...although he did say some weird things..like during one instance during a game show called 'School Kakumei'..they were playing this game in which there is this screen that shows a Japanese word..and there will be someone who is facing away from the screen..i.e..cannot see whats on the screen,..then its the job of the guest stars..in this case, Yamada Ryosuke, Yuri Chinen and some other guys..to take turns using English to try and give hints to the person facin away from the screen until he/she manages to guess the Japanese word..

this is how it looks like..and these are the guest stars..Ryosuke's d one standing up..

well the first word Ryosuke got was..'Katsura'..which means 'wig' in English..and he has this look on his face..

then here goes
Ryosuke.'Er....Hair!'

woman.'hair?kaminoke..hair'(not sure if i spelt it correctly but kaminoke is literally 'hair' in eng)
Ryosuke.'Volume up'

(which has absolutely nothing to do with wigs..i think he was panicking and saying any word that came to his head..coz he was moving his hands and fingers in such a way that told everyone that he was squeezing out all his brain juices)
woman.'volume up..hair?'
(now this made me laugh out loud'
Ryosuke.'Kapa kapa.'(with motions at his head)

(at this..everyone in the place burst into laughter..while his fellow guest stars grabbed his hands..coz he isnt supposed to use his hands while giving hints..and roared with laughter,himself included)

guest star 1(dunno his name).'kapa kapa?!'(laughlaughlaugh)

Ryosuke.'what's that?'(he's laughing too..coz he doesn even know d meaning of what he just said)
guest star 2(dunno his name either).'thats not even english!!'
woman.'kamikami kapa kapa?'(literally 'volume up hair kapakapa?')
when everything calmed down....Ryosuke tried again
Ryosuke.'Fake'

woman.'Fake hair?Katsura?'
So she managed to get it right..
next one..im not totally sure what it was but i think it was 'M-1 Grand Prix'..coz its in Japanese.and my Japanese is still very limited.
Ryosuke.'Er....Number 1.'

woman.'number ichi.'(ichi is one)
Ryosuke.''Er....Comedian(i dont know where he got that from)..number 1....money'

as u can see..it totally doesnt make sense..and has absolutely nothing to do with M-1 Grand Prx
woman.'Hokane no ichiban no comedian'(I don't think my spelling is right here)..u can see her face beginning to laugh after she said that

...while Ryosuke went...'Ergh....chigau.'(oh he is SO cute~)and everyone laughed at him..including himself

Ryosuke.'Eto....(which means..lets see..or ummm..)and he scratched his chin then he gave up,waving his arm
Ryosuke.'Skip,skip..next!!'he was smiling..ive said this many times..but soooo cute...

Next one....which i tell u..made me go..=.=''''...ready?its ' DORAEMON'

the guest stars all went..'ahh..what a hard one...'and u can see this look on Ryosuke's face as he brainstorms for the right words..

and he kept flourishing his right arm...
Ryosuke.'Blue.....(one flourish..pause..blinks.thinks...)....circle.'

and u can see that the guest star behind him bursts into laughter..
woman.'Aoi maru?(literally 'blue circle')...aoi maru??'
she moves her hands in the form of a circle, bewilderment on her face

Ryosuke(one hand at his chin)..'Blue cat,'

the woman looks even more puzzled

woman.'Aoi neko??'(Blue cat)

Ryosuke then says the final clue..

Ryosuke.'Robot..robot.'

realisation dawns on the woman's face...

woman.'Ah, i got it!! Is that..Doraemon?!'

and so..Ryosuke managed to do it...^^..YAY!!!!

SQUEE!!!!!!!MECHA KAWAII!!!

Ahem...wow..I cant believe I took the time to do all that..but then..since i enjoyed watching this so much~i dont mind~..hehehe

Kim...he is damned cute ok~lalalala..

i only have one complaint...HE'S YOUNGER THAN ME!!!!NOOOOOOO......

sobs..[goes to corner and cries eyes out]..but then..its not like im ever gonna meet him anyway...so i guess its okay...he is soooo cute~cute..cute...I wonder what Nathaniel will think if he sees this...he probably will even skip this entire thing~but who knows..oh well...

T.T..kim put my webcam pic on her blog,..on the day when the connection was so bad that our webcams got stuck....i have one of her too...but its not as bad..no, its nice, compared to the one she has for me...yes, kim..i will kill u one and a half months later..XD...here's her stuck webcam face

WAHAHAHAHA!!!it looks like she's eating the microphone...she herself said its like a lollipop...

will write more later today..got to go slp as its 2.30am here...ERNEST..dont u dare tell mummy i sleep so late or i will exact proper revenge..

oh..and i think i will post abt how i managed to slice a part of my thumb next~no..it didnt come off..

until then,i shall slumber..

hehehe

(okay..by the time i post this..its going to be WAAAY over my bday)Happie birthdaaaay to MEEEEE~yes..i know that its past midnight..but humour me and pretend its still the 27th so i can write in the present tense

ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!!TODAY!!!YEA~!!!oh super happy...ive been waiting for YEARS for my birthday to finally fall back on a sunday...but it seemed that I would never get my wish...so lucky that last year's a leap year..which means..extra day~..in actual reality..my bday's supposed to be on Saturday...for now.I love leap years...wahahaha....now lets see..theres so much to say and not enough time to say it..i'll start with yesterday..the 26th of Sept..where we had the pre-anniversary dinner at Manggis Mall..i had fun~definitely...our dance rockz!!!but i thnk i looked stupid..somehow...managed to breeze thru the moves without any major mistakes...but throughout the 2nd dance, there was one thought in my head..which was..'darn...how transparent is this shirt under the spotlights anyway?' coz i cant exactly look down to check, right?

and the food was good..Cindy and Ammeliney didnt like the some of the appetizers(mussels and jellyfish) so guess who had extra helpings?[grin]by the time we reached the fried rice course i was stuffed to the gills...so FULL!!!ok...how come i can seem to remember what I wanted to say?oh YEAH!!!Creature of Darkness a.k.a Gladys, Ammeliney and I were laughing like mental hospital runaways sometime near the middle of the whole occasion..its the kind of laughter that when you are normal and sane, you dn't think its that funny..but at the time..it is HILARIOUS...I was laughing so hard I couldn't breathe...It started with my sis and Ammeline saying lame jokes..like the one that goes..'there are two buns in an oven..a big bun and a small bun...the big bun turned to the small bun and said ''its hot in here'' and the smallbun went ''oooh, a talking bun!!'' '....T.T...i was like.LAME!!! ToT...and yes..in a way..its darn funny..and it set Ammeline off..she said herself that she laughs easily..then my sis said another one..slightly racist sounding..'What do you call two black ppl under a red blanket?'..answer..'KIT KAT'...i tell you..that one was so lame that I couldnt even laugh...and since im so sleepy..i shall continue this post tomorrow...and pretend that its still the 27th..ok?nights for now~
I'M BAAACK!!!and now I shall proceed to upload pictures of my bday prezzies!!here's Yieng's!!!I was sooo happy man...I ate Excapade coz Misato wasnt open..darn restaurant just HAD to have renovations on my birthday..so next best is Excapade..then Yieng called to ask where I was..and then later she drove all the way from home to Excapade just to give me my prezzie(this is what my sis told me..she said that Theng told her)..Its hard to describe how i felt..i was just sooo happy to see her..she's returning to UK...

                                                                                          

A horsie~(i think) with chocos inside..im gonna get fatter!!NOOOOO

Naptime for two ppl who ignored me..hmph..guess who they are?

Not yet eaten..but i was sorely tempted

A different angle..i was mentally drooling

The first bite~oh HEAVEN~the STRAWBERRIES!!!

After one minute(i couldn wait any longer)..i took the second bite...and AGAIN i saw stars..~yumyumyumyum

the third bite was taken within a very short period of time too..i just HAD to have more of those strawberries

the FOURTH bite!!!by this time..i was sadly thinking that it was going to finish soon

fifth bite..it was diminishing in size before my eyes....but my tastebuds were in the seventh heaven of delight

I called this photo 'The Last Stand'...see?its standing bravely eventhough its about to meet its end...

Do I have to comment on this one?^^

oh..and this ones's ferrero rocher~lalalala

there's also a present I got from Aunty Tong Ching..a Mary Kay watch..but since I havent photographed it, I

can't show it yet..maybe later...this post is gonna take a long time..coz i'm doing work at the same time..

its now the 2nd of oct..and i havent even finished this post...hahah..ooh..uploading the pics of my bday pressies so far..

                              

this is the watch aunty tongching gave me~my mum thanks God coz she says she's been trying to get me to wear a watch since form 1..and i hav only started wearing one now..this one

                              

my watch~lalalala..

from a different angle..but someow..i just cant capture the shiny-ness(not a real word)off the wrist band

my mom bought this belt for me.^^..she said it was expensive..and wont tell m the price

my belt~~

this bracelet's a present from auntie Doreen..my mom says when she heard it was my bday, she told my mom to give it to me..i was very surprised..and very happy~THANK YOU AUNTIE DOREEN!!

BRACELET!!BRACELET!!!

YES~its what u think it is...ITS A MOBILE PHONE!!!!MY DAD BOUGHT ME A MOBILE PHONE!!!YAY!!!!I WAS SO HAPPIE!!!!!with one exception..I love it..but i love my previous phone more..this one has no mirrored surface to look at urself...when i asked my dad how come he didn buy the same one..he said there was no more.....i never knew that phones run out so fast..even less popular models..at least I THINK my 7310 had been a less popular model..who know if its actually super popular....mobile phone!lalalala~mobile phoneee...

well..that's all d presents i've received till now..my dear joycey and huibooie owe me..muahahahha...and so does grace and char..n amos..n gab,..and and and and..hehehe..what am i saying....

our choir singing for the fortieth anniversary went better than i expected..and I realised one thing...many parents would die for the chance to stand next to their child while singing together..lemme explain..my mom and I ended up standing next to each other in the place arrangements for the choir this time...neither of us planned it..its coz I'm singing first soprano..(and with the exception of Cindy,..none of my other friends did..T.T..abandonment~)and so is my mom...and I'm taller than her..while the other person next to my mom is shorter than her..so there you go..neither of us thought anything of it either..but then on the day of the performance..after the service..my mom told me one uncle told her he was so envious of us both..he said that by the time his daughter gets to the age where she can sing in the choir, he would be old and unable to sing..I was very surprised..what I said was..'HUH?is it such a big deal when mother and daughter stand together and sing?'...my mum had a similar response...that uncle also said that throughout the whole song he was looking at me and my mom, the only mother-daughter pair in the choir that stood next to each other, and he looked at no one else...wow..I really didn't know it was such a big deal for parents...even later when we were eating lunch at Curry House..Grace's parents and the others were commenting..how envious they were..and are we sure we didn't plan to stand together and the such..so I came to the conclusion that most parents long to have such chances together with their children.....APPRECIATE YOUR TIME WITH YOUR PARENTS...but i can say honestly that I was glad to stand next to my mom...throughout all the practices, she was the recipient of all the little complaints and comments I had..like when I was complaining that my feet were sore..and they were VERY SORE....seriously..i could feel my legs aching..i kept shifting from foot to foot..or when I heard some out-of-tune..or when i was wondering why our conductor gave us the wrong key to start on..or when i heard amos making weird noises somewhere behind me...realy weird noises..OH YEAH!!I REMEMBER SOMETHING!!!on Friday, two days prior to Sunday, the 27th, we were at Manggis Mall rehearsing...and both Amos and I hadn't had our dinner, me having rushed to be on time(blaming my siblings here)..and amos, i dunno lar...well,yes as i was saying, neither of us had had dinner...so after rehearsal, we went to eat Sugarbun while our parents rehearsed..with Renwei and Siang Thai...he and I both had curry...and he ate DOUBLE portion...okay..thats not the main point..he had mentioned that he hd a bit of a sore throat..i advised him against eating curry but he said he didn't care, he had a craving for it...then on Sat, he told me that his voice was vanishing..and i told him 'Who told you to eat curry that day?...you MUST sing tomorrow ah..'...and then he 'exercised' his voice by letting out some noises that can't be described...but if i had to say, it sounds rather like a cat that got its tail stamped on..well..then on the day itself...his voice was in even worse condition..he then told me that he woke up every hour the night before to drink water and use the bathroom..and I was laughing and laughing....oh, and he let out even more of those weird noises to test his voice...and THEN just before we were going to go on the stage, we were all standing up...my mom and I heard even weirder noises behind us..i knew immediately who made them but my mom didnt know...and she turned around in surprise..whee..it was amos..and he ws making bullfrog-ish sounds in an attempt to make sure he could still sing at that pitch...i was hard-pressed not to laugh out loud..HARHARHAR!!!and then~after the service..amos lost most of his voice..he couldn't even call out loud enough to summon Gabriel over..ok..after the service, they gave me a surprise..its d day of my bday...and I didn't even see it coming.evryone vanished after the service..everyone as in my friends, except for huibooie...I had noticed them all gathering together near the stairs but didn't notice anything suspicious about it as all us teens like to gather together after service...then Grace reappeared with Gabriel to exhort me to go eat downstairs...(later she told me that she had been given the task to get me downstairs but didn't know how to do it without arousing my suspicion..so she dragged Gabriel along...she needn't have worried however as I didnt suspect a thing)...I ate..then I was going to wash my hands in the kitchen and Grace seemed really anxious..she tried to stop me, calling me..but then she calmed down(she told me later that she was afraid that they were all still at the back lighting candles..and then I would see it and the surprise would be spoilt..can u believe that I still didn't even suspect at that point?)..then she told me to go outside to talk...and let me tell u..thats something we do all the time so it wasnt suspicious...and I noticed Isaac hovering around,following behind me with a camera..BUT i didnt suspect anything again..i shouldve guessed however..the minute I stepped out and looked left, i saw them all and they burst into a chorus of 'Happy birthday to yoouuu..'I was seriously surprised..like..for real..my first instinct was to flee back inside but i stopped myself..then Grace dragged me over..a lot of them were holding a small cupcake with a lighted candle embedded in it..and all were half-yelling,'blow mine!!blow mine!!'...and Isaac was hovering around with the camera...i had fun~hehehe..and I didnt get to blow Gladys' one coz it fell..and RW's coz the wind decided to help me...then they all piled the cakes into my hands like a cupcake pyramid..and proceeded to take pics..i thin they were enjoying seeing me try to balance the very unbalanced tower of cupcakes,,HAHA!!!took many many pics...and I look so fat in all of them..ergh..i was sooo happy!!!and vry touched...especially becoz of Aunty TongChing..it was her apparently who organised it...haha!!

Yieng left two days ago...and im still depressed over it..it happened so fast..i didnt get to say goodbye properly..and it was so hard to smile when its the last thing i felt like doing..im happy that Yieng can go back to study..and all..but I really really didnt want her to leave..it felt even more like a goodbye than the last time..i was so happy to see her again and spend time with her..great,,now i feel like crying again..i felt like I didn't spend enough time with her, didn't get to talk to her enough, didn't get to hug her enough..I just felt like something was gone..i realised over again how important it was to me to be able to have her in brunei..where i could see her face-to-face..and to also realise that to hear her voice talking to me was so important..i know that as long as we both are in this world, I'll be able to see her again..but each parting, no matter who, is significant in its own way and painful in its own way...its not like its a mere holiday...everyone seemed so happy, shouting goodbye to her..i knew in my heart that they were all sad to see her go..and that there were no tears yet coz it was so fast..coz she was late and hd to run and that they would probably feel it later.but for me...I felt it really acutely when i watched her go in...its painful and horrible..i was rather glad that i ended up at the back of the crowd of my friends..at least they couldnt see my expression..and I just watched when some of them gave her final hugs and she went in...then I turned away and told my father to go now...I really wanted to cry, and if I stayed any longer, I would..i was just that close to tears-pouring-down-cheeks...i guess words are insufficient to express much..as far as i saw(like i said..as far as i saw..and i couldnt see really clearly then.)no one else was close to tears..(i dont know abt huibooie..and i know her mom n sis were also that close to crying)..was i the only one at that time that felt that I couldn't bear it?that if i opened my mouth to say something, i would cry?...it didnt help that I hadn been able to ask her if she had been a leetle mad at me on monday..coz i couldn help but be a little paranoid..and maybe not even paranoid..what if it's true?..i just want to know,guess i'll have to somehow dare to ask her..like now..

Well...suffice it to say that im going to be depressed for the better part of this week..Renwei says he had been trying to cheer me up that day.,..I hadn't known that my mood was so obvious..buts its seriously hard to smile when your chest feels tight...sigh...there're still things i want to write about that day, but they have eluded me for the time being..so nevermind..