Thursday, March 15, 2012

Lemons are bitter. Life is Bitter. Therefore Life is a Lemon

Weird title? Yeah maybe. Just occurred to me one day while I was frowning at my computer screen, trying to make sense of some sentence. How does a 'bitter feeling' feel like anyway? I know how it feels like, but how does one describe it other than, 'it feels so bitter'? I've had my fair share of bitter feelings. Kinda conflicted within myself since there are so many battles going inside my mind. There are things that I try to ignore but which hit with the force of a truck at random moments, be it regrets, unhappy moments or doubt. It's truly very frustrating. Especially if I can't do anything about it. Won't talk much about those coz who knows if someone stumbles on something I don't really want them to know. Hehe, that's kinda silly considering this is a blog. But at times, I just feel so very very very very bitter. And usually, it's almost impossible to tell someone because there's no way of letting them understand. therefore........LEMONS.

And happy 2012 to me! I hadn't realised how long it's been since I last wrote here. Back in Melbourne now and not very happy about uni. xD I can't express how much I want to go home. The workload is beginning to pick up after only one week. Things are due, tests are approaching...in fact, what I'm doing now is procrastinating. I have an abstract-y sort of thing to hand in tomorrow. I've started....reading what I'm supposed to be reading. But writing?Not so much. 

Speaking of reading, I was looking thru all those papers and I didnt hear a single word or registered a single tune of an entire tracklist that had been playing in my ears. They could've been silent for all the attention I paid to them i.e. none. LOL. That really proves my theory that when I read, I don't hear things around me. It's worse when I'm reading a story. I completely don't hear people calling me unless they do it near to me. Or even in front of me. My mom got mad at me countless times coz I had been reading and hadn't heard a single word she said for a good 10 minutes. 

So I felt more than a little depressed yesterday. I cheered up after reading all Nakahara Aya manga I could find. Some of them were meh. Kinda...weird and farfetched. But what I like about her is that alot of the stories she draws has this...real feeling to it. Like they aren't the typical characters that you see. I could see how her art style evolved. I didn't like her early drawings that much due to character proportion and face style. By the time she got to Nanaco Robin(whose storyline had some farfetched elements but was nevertheless worth a read) she got her drawing style down to pat. It rested well with my eyes. Apparently she's got a 'new' series called Junjou Drop. I call it new because I've never heard of it before but who knows that it could have been published in Japan for a year or so already. And try as I might, I have been unable to find any summary about it. Must.Search.Harder.

Current list of songs that I haven't got bored with
(i.e I don't listen to the first few seconds, go 'too many times I've heard this' and press next. OR that I didn't even bother to listen)
a) History - Exo-K
 : The pants shaking is a bit...strange. But the rest of the dance was interesting. I  liked the beat and the tune. It's very catchy and settled nicely with my ears. Although the guy called..Kai I think, sounded and looked way too much like Taemin at certain points. It's rather disturbing. They're cute but I kept seeing elements of other boyband members in them. Kai looks like Taemin. Actually, with that makeup, alot of them look like Taemin. Examples will be shown below. BUT bear in mind that its resemblance. Theres another guy from what I call their 'sister' band Exo-M, that looks vaguely like Ryeowook from Suju. Another that I think looks like Lee Teuk from Suju too.(Note that the 'I' is big and red because that's my opinion and that real fans might massacre me for saying so) Then another looked a little like YunHo from DBSK. The final two from Exo-M were strangely appealing to me.

NOTE: Just watched it again. I lied. The dance wasn't just interesting. It's scintillating. YUMMYLICIOUSLY(I know this isn't a word) BRILLIANT I still frown at the pant shaking though.

Now for the comparisons:
#1
This I believe, is Lay. To me, he looks like Lee Teuk. Exo-M guy.

#2
 To me, he looks like Ryeowook. His name apparently is Kris. Also and Exo-M

#3
Dontchu think he has some resemblance to YunHo? Me believes he be called Xiu Min. Exo-M

#4

I don't know about you, but he reminds me of Siwon. Or someone. I don't really remember. He's Exo-K. I THINK he's called Su Ho.

All these similarities make me think of plastic surgery. But if its true, no surprise there.
The two Exo-K guys whose dancing made me favor them above the others are as shown below
Yes, this is He-Who-Looks-Like-Taemin. Otherwise known as Kai. Can't you see le ressemblance? Dances good too. Makes me wonder if he's actually Taemin. LOL.
Looks a bit like Taemin too. But he's not Kai. He's Se Hun. As of now, these two are the ones I favor in Exo-K.

NOW for the two guys that intrigued me so much in Exo-M. 
First up, Lu Han. He really really really intrigues me somehow.
 Must be the sort of icy perfection around his face. He could put on a wig and I'd think he was female. I mean that in the nicest way possible. Especially since I think he's cute.

And the last one. The one that made me go Oo.
He is TAO. Let me tell you why he caught my eye. It's coz he's how I imagine a human, grownup Nishizono Tetora would be. Little bit of background info. Tetora's a main character in MPD Psycho, a manga that I admit is weird as heck. But Tetora is so hot that I don't care.
IMO, Tetora is the coolest character to ever step in MPD Psycho. Even if he has split personalities. Which is basically the whole point of MPD Psycho. Multiple Personality Disorder Psycho. And no, Tetora isn't a psycho. Sort of.
This color picture of him graces my iPhone wallpaper
akejfkraelksjgfalrglajrgarkjgag. That is all.
BUT let me clarify a few things. I'm not what one can call a fan of either Exo-M or Exo-K. Or even Suju and DBSK. I only like particular people inside each band. And it's not an intense fan attraction either. I can almost hear my sister screaming at me. She's a fan of Suju. Whereas, I operate on a well-out-of-this-entire-band-this-is-the-guy-I-prefer basis.

With that in mind, I believe its DBSK:ChangMin, Suju:KyuHyun, Shinee:Taemin. That's all so far. Since both Exo's havent debuted yet, I will reserve judgement xD. But goodness, I already know who I'm partial towards.

Anyways, next song

b) The Reckoning - The Getaway Plan

I heard the tune of the song randomly in an advert. And searched desperately for the song itself. The video is EXTREMELY DISTURBING. But I sorta get the message there. And the lead vocal, Matt is pretty good imo. I really like his voice. They're an Australian band too.

c) Yu Ren De Guo Du - Sun Yan Zi

To be really really honest. I like my friend's singing of it much better than the original. It's her singing at Karaoke that I first met this song. The MV has a strange beauty about it. Sorta like..fantasy world.

d) Viva La Vida - ColdPlay

I heard the tune. Loved it. Got it. End of story. It's one of the two Coldplay tunes I know. I'm too lazy to check if the rest of their songs are as nice

e) Everytime - Britney

It's just..nice. I can't explain. It's got some sort of a poignant feel to it.

f) Michiyuki - Hikita Kaori(not sure if that's supposed to be a 'da' or 'ta'

I actually caught myself singing this while I was sleeping. Which is damned weird. And it's written by one of my fav Jap composers, Yuki Kajiura. Figures. which leads on to....

g) Fairytale - Kalafina

This is a Yuki Kajiura composition. BUT not sung by her. It's used as the ending song for the...6th movie installation of Kara no Kyoukai, which is one of the most epic things I ever watched. The handling of emotions, the story telling, the story itself is so good. However I do not recommend watching it unless you are able to handle things. It's one of the Type-Moon worlds so its guaranteed to come with strange fantasy stuff, mages, spiral of origin, eyes that can see the death of things etc.

h) Closer - Ne Yo

It's catchy okay. Makes me walk faster to uni too, so it's good when I'm about to be late.

i) Countless epic music without lyrics

Let me tell you, listening to Day Becomes Night, The Crossing, Forbidden Friendship etc while walking back from uni is like being in an epic movie. Coz the music is E-P-I-C. The first two songs are from Two Steps From Hell(who compose epic music like nobody's business)

I....can't think of anything else I'd like to say for now. So, back to that assignment due tomorrow. Hmph